I guess most of people especially Japanese, Anime and manga lovers, or J-Culture lovers know what Tadaima is.
According to Japanese -English dictionary (or google) ,
Tadaima means "I'm home". Tadaima is one of daily expression in Japanese which Japanese says when he/she comes home. Maybe for you and other people, it's just a simple expression but for Kenshin and me, it has a deep meaning.
To be honest, I knew that expression for the first time when I was 7 or 8 years old, after watching Rurouni Kenshin in Japanese sub (it was aired in AXN at that time). After that I checked in Japanese conversation book that I bought and I learned that it becomes Japanese's habit to say "Tadaima" when they come home and their family member who is at home will greet them by saying "
Okaerinasai" which means "Welcome Home" .
Although those scenes look simple, but that was Kenshin's first time to say it after wandering again and it was his first time to have someone greeted him "okaerinasai". After wandering for long time, finally he had home. Home for him to stay and for his soul to live in peace. And after looking these scene, I understood that I've mistaken home as house. Home doesn't mean a place to stay literally, but people who love you and make you feel comfortable. Although you have a big house, it doesn't mean you have warm house too.
Yeah though I live in good house and I'm grateful for that, it doesn't mean that I have home. Yeah I have family but it's so rare to find peaceful in there. When there're 'just three of us', yes I found it but beside that....nothing. Since I learned about home from Kenshin, I've tried to say tadaima when I'm home. But the problem where's my home. Thanks to God that I have schools (kindergarten-senior high) as my home, 2nd home. I have good bestfriends, friends, and teachers. But I never say tadaima when I arrive at school. So where is my 1st home?
The answer is in my dream. I have a habit to take a bath after getting back from school and then go to my bedroom immediately. I jump to my bed and then close my eyes "Tadaima" You can say that I'm crazy or freak but when I close my eyes, I can see Kenshin and Kaoru greet me just like those scene " Okaeri". Sometimes when I have a bad day, imagination takes me to Kaoru's lap. She will let my head to lay on her laps and caress it while keep saying "daijoubu..everything is going to be alright". And when my temperature drops because I'm really upset or angry (I don't know, I have this symptom since I was a kid when I'm upset or really nervous, my temperature will go down and my body will be freezing like ice) Kaoru and Kenshin will hug me. You can say that my brain has broken, but I guess those that keep my sanity.
I've kept doing it for a long time and in 2013 God gave me the best gift ever, an angel for me. It was my first time to say "tadaima" to one person. A special person for me. Although we live in different places, I keep texting her "tadaima" everytime I arrive at my house after getting back from somewhere. My heart feels home when I'm with her. That's why although it's just a text, it's really meaningful to me. It has been 14 years since I learned about "home" and finally I found it for real not imagination. A text from her can change my terrible day in a second into good day and just imagine the time that we spent together, it sweeps the memories about the bad days from my brain. I'm so blessed to have her in my life.
"I love her more and the most plus endless number"
Tadaima........